2001-07-10

4:57 p.m.

outa here

dear god... its been a long time.

my apologies to those who have still checked in to see what i have to say. my regards to those who i've disappeared from, left behind, and neglected to keep informed.

see, in the last few weeks, everything in my life has done a complete 180 and i've ended up ass-backwards.

i've moved. i've been in and out of doctors offices. i've started to put a dent in that horrible debt i've been thrown into. i've worked hard, planned a well-deserved vacation, and shed a few tears. i've had a few deaths of family members and friends, and i've been promoted yet again.

i guess that about sums it all up.

but wait.. theres more! my birthday is in one week. one week from today, i celebrate that i have been given another year of life. i celebrate w/ some good friends then travel a few states away to celebrate with a few more.

all the suffering i've had to endure will mean nothing when i see his face again and when he puts those arms around me and tells me how good it is to see me again. all the rough times will fade when she screams with joy when she sees my face again after all this time. i love visiting friends. i love feeling as if i'm a part of a greater something, even if for only a few days before its ripped away.

i've also decided to get out of this town once and for all. all those years of moving around made me realize that this place is not for me. we've started planning. we've started the savings. we're ready to go and when the gun goes off, the race is on. its about damn time and it feels good to be back.

"give me two weeks and i'm outa here...."

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