2001-03-19

9:30 p.m.

sever all ties

Well, I'm now into my second week of work and things are going wonderfully. I'm back to receiving paychecks and in another few years, my debt may even be worked off. Isn't that a pleasant thought?

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I don't have much to think about right now. I'm just floating day by day, as if waiting for the next milemarker to hit. It seems that my time is now spent doing fillers. I work to fill time. I hang out with friends to fill time. I exercise to fill time. I read to pass time. I don't do much else. It seems that I'm waiting for the next trip or the next out-of-town friends to get here while on tour. Thats the only thing I have to look forward to. I thought about this void and at first, wondered if it was lack of a love interest that was setting me back so much but I realized that my independence right now is the most important thing to me. All the Mr. Wrongs in the world are not enough of a filler so I'd rather be empty waiting for Mr. Right... especially since it will mean so much more when he arrives.

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There is no such thing as the perfect man. thats just the way it is....

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