2001-01-29

3:18 pm

moving on

I think I'm in love.

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I took a part time job today at my mum's office so I could make some extra money while I find a new job. I'm going to be moving in a few weeks and after some last minute roommate changes, I think I have found myself a new house. I'll have to wait and see because its going to cost me my left arm to get into the house.

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I found out that a girl I barely knew passed away yesterday. It seems it was a drug overdose and hearing that, I had mixed feelings. I mean, I didn't know her all too well. We'd met through common friends on a few occassions. People used to tell me stories about her but I would always dismiss them because it never really affected me. These same people who would say horrible things about her and disrespect her as much as possible are the people who are craving attention in the event of her passing. They're playing the part of the mourning friend when in my opinion, they passed up that right. Maybe its guilt. Maybe its a lack of focus on them. In any event, I'm finding myself more angered about her death than anything else. Its amazing what you hear about people and when it proves to be true, you're not so much shocked but you pity them. My heart goes out to her true friends and her family. Suffering this kind of loss is never easy...

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