2001-01-27

4:23 pm

in circles

After an eventful and extended trip to Las Vegas, I'm home... safe and sound. There were good times to be had and oh, they were had by all... I'd go into detail but there is just too much to write and my entire body feels like a foreign object. Once I catch up on sleep, I'll be happy to enclose all the intimate details of our adventure but for now, I'm moving on...

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Its raining outside and I'm feeling that weather throughout my house. I haven't had a moment to clean since all the kids left last week and its making me hate being here. In one months time, I am to be moving again. I have been in the midst of plans with Jaesyn and Christian to get a house but things are not falling into place the way we had hoped and I may have to move into my parents house for a short time while I get back on my feet. This lack of a job has set me back further than I had originally planned and our lack of finding suitable housing is making it difficult for us to have faith in our original plans. I'm not getting stressed out yet because I don't think it will help much but I'll be sure to let everyone know when I've hit that point. On a side note, I still need a home for my cat... so if you're looking for an adorable companion to sleep at your feet, Hannah is for you...

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I have nothing of real value to write about today because I haven't even left my house. I slept in, wrote some real letters (which i feel are much more personable than an email, made a late lunch, played with my cat, and smoked a badly needed cigarette while drinking too much coffee... the excitement is enough to kill a horse, isn't it?

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Lately, I've had that feeling you get when you've been away from home for too long. Its not quite homesickness, but rather a void you get when you feel you're not in your normal comfortable surroundings. I got it the minute I got home from Las Vegas and I have yet to shake it. I'm taking it as a sign that its time to get my ass ready for a big move but financially, I can't manage it right now. Philly is still screaming my name and I can't wait to get out of here but anyone who knows me should realize that its just not in the cards. Not yet, anyway...

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So, as I sit here listening to records and collecting dust, I'm searching for a way to feel I am in my own element... Its starting to feel like a wild goose chase.

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