2001-01-21

12:07 pm

dollars and cents

This past week has been hectic and wonderful. I had so many new faces pass through my front door. There were several bands going through town this week and they all opted to stay with me. One band stayed for a total of 3 days and although I managed to have too many drinks at the bar, which led me to make a complete ass out of myself, I can honestly say I miss the guys. The night after they left, I had 2 other bands who stayed, all who took good care of me during my "recovery".... and on that note, I never want to hear about that night again.

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There is a guy I've been struggling to get to know and last night, he finally gave me a call. After an extensive phone conversation and some plans for later this week, I must admit I'm pretty content...

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Still no news about the job situation and I have now hit a point where i'm thousands in debt due to too much rent. That certain ex has not paid a cent yet so I'm still drowning.. It was decided last night that I may not be able to afford a new place in a month when my lease runs out so as of right now, I will be homeless come next month. Sometimes I find myself getting so angry. He just left me here stranded. No money, no way to survive, a maxed-out credit card with no way to pay it, and a broken keyboard to remember him. I get so angry and question why I've let him get away with it. People have told me that I have enough "evidence" to bring him to small claims court but it would be pointless because he has nothing to give me.

I have worked so hard to get where I am and in a matter of a few months, its all disappeared. My father brought over a "for sale" sign today for my car window and I almost cried. I argued that I would find ways to finish the payments but I've missed 2 already and its against his credit as well as my own so he's not going to let it slide anymore.

I just don't see how this happened. One day, I was fine and then the next, he put me in the poorhouse. Single-handedly wiped me out... I guess when he said I'd get what was coming to me, he meant this. I just never thought it was deserved.

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I tried not to make this issue about my financial troubles but every day, I'm watching more things disappear because I can't afford my bills. Clothes, food, my car, my house, everything... its a depressing day when I can't afford to eat just so I could have electricity for the month.

I wish I could win the lottery...

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